what is your generation

anyway if you’re a youth just enjoy it and be one with the zeitgeist, your time in the sun is a lot shorter than you think. Past age 32 or so you have to make a very concerted effort not to disconnect with what’s going on, and in many ways it is just not worth it (has to be like, your entire thing).

it’s just some fog that makes you forget things what’s the problem

Culture war stuff (“Marvel cringe!!”)

nah this stuff transcends politics, soy dialogue needs to die (said by someone who eats tofu for protein almost exclusively)

Don’t beat yourself up about it. 7-8 years is a natural amount of time to devote to a serious hobby and you are well past that. I thought I would rock climb forever until it became a slog to convince myself to go and then I stopped. Now I have a different hobby and am very happy. Anything you don’t do as a job should ultimately be done for joy, play, and experimentation. You are not doomed to do the same thing for the rest of your life after becoming good at it, and certainly not because you’ve spent a few thousand bucks on it.

People have a margin of subjectivity on top of the material circumstances they are born into. If we judge them by that alone we get a sort of sports-like VAR (Value Above Replacement) analysis, which sure whatever. Unfortunately I think that is too limited. If you’re born into a maximally genocidal settler society I don’t want to see or interact with you. Only those fully transcending their circumstances and joining the other side, like Franz Fanon, are worthy of respect.

This made me think of Star Citizen where they spent like two years doing “physics-based movement” for player characters before scrapping it and rigging everything because it just felt like absolute garbage to play.

To me it illustrates that feel can only come from an iterative process of exploring & trying new things, not first principles.

Spouse who is a psychiatrist read your post. Says there is not really enough information to go on but uppers do have a lot of dopamine which can induce/trigger psychosis. It is admirable you want to help your boss after they have helped you. Unfortunately if they don’t want help voluntarily the only other option is helping them involuntarily, i.e. involuntary commitment and the rules on that vary by state/country. In typical psychiatrist style they don’t want to say much more than that without having direct information about the situation.

(My own analysis now) I agree going to their boss is a risk that can go either way. Their particular online environment also actively denigrates therapy that curtails their ideas as being Jewish/liberal psyops to keep people from understanding the truth. The general extreme zionist alignment of the current US admin also provides a constellation of objective facts they can plausibly hang their hat on, not to mention the whole Jeffery Epstein thing. So you’re operating at the level of competing narratives now. And frankly even us on the left haven’t coalesced around a comprehensive counter-narrative yet. Just a few weeks ago there was a struggle session here about whether the US/zionist relationship is reciprocal or one way (driven by the US) which resulted in a long-time user getting banned. I don’t want to really start a struggle session but this is a larger issue we need to figure out our story on because ZOG conspiracists are eating our lunch.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gerald_Ratner

Anotha one

Dark Souls 1 and 2?

This is such an incredible nothingburger of a story lol even Trump doesn’t give a shit

Trump defended Witkoff on Tuesday night. “That’s what a dealmaker does. You’ve got to say look, they want this, you’ve got to convince them of this,” Trump said while onboard Air Force One. “That’s a very standard form of negotiation.” He added that he imagined Witkoff “is saying the same thing to Ukraine”.

The end of bamboo scaffolding?

You’ve probably seen the Mark Rober video but anyway that’s what I followed, bed away from the wall + traps around feet of bed + mattress cover + diatomaceous earth

Epic Game Store has pretty much succeeded with their weekly free (often quite good!) games. I’ve even bought a few things from them. Unfortunately they fucked up royally and EGS is an unusable slow piece of shit. Really an indictment of modern software engineering practices but they need to ether than entire thing and rewrite it from scratch. Steam is much more performant. Still, EGS shows that it is possible to break in as long as you have a boatload of cash to burn. However, Valve has started to run up the score by making their own their hardware; using EGS on steam deck is a pain.

Really hope this goes through. I haven’t been mainlining FPV drone kill vids like some people but I’ve seen a few. Imagining my fate as the person looking up in panic right before the screen turns to static. Gaza illustrated the barbarity, hypocrisy, and vapidity of liberalism but Ukraine really illustrated how anything good about us just gets ground into irrelevance by war. Impossible to interact with the war at all without losing humanity. An entire geographic area descended into insanity, an ongoing natural disaster that might as well be a force of nature from the perspective of the people fighting on the ground. I am saved from it only by not being there, my beliefs totally irrelevant.

Phones bought in the early 2010s are a much different beast than phones bought closer to 2020. Pre-2015 you could expect your phone to run out of storage and RAM after only a couple years. I recall I had some google phone which immediately auto-closed every app when it wasn’t active, because of memory pressure. You couldn’t even swap between one app and another to copy & paste something. Hasn’t been the case since 2020, they’re all basically way better than you really need now.

I wonder how much RAM prices have thrown a wrench in things. Prices of some units have doubled even in the past few weeks.

how the fuck would a new vs. five year old phone help “productivity” when phones themselves are probably the biggest attention suck/productivity drag in existence

At least in America, which imports the reactionary losing/wealthy side of every socialist revolution around the world, standpoint theory is guaranteed to get you a “bomb every country under the sun my Venezuelan friend approves of this” perspective. Partly this is because a lot of Americans think all immigrants are impoverished instead of having to be pretty well-off to get here (excepting border-jumpers or refugees). I know some second- and third-gen immigrants that even play up this perception. Except I’ve been to their families’ houses lol

Seems like a good initiative. It’s a rampant problem.

Depressive episodes go up for me any time after a long break from ordinary life (including vacation, even). For me, so much about depression revolves around being unable to summon the motivation to do anything, which causes further depressed thoughts, which further depresses motivation. Breaking out of that loop is hard, and it takes time to get back in a routine that supports good mental health. I guess what I’m saying is that “momentum” matters for doing things; if I’ve been doing things, it’s easier for me to do more things.

As far as things peaking in the evening, that’s a classic. My spouse calls it my “10 pm ruminations” where I’ll find myself staring at the wall for a while then say something like “maybe I should [action that would completely change the direction of my entire life]”. I don’t know if that’s depression necessarily, just ordinary human existential angst.