No there isn’t

I love your decor, so cozy!

I made the mistake of needing a new winter coat, so I am at the mall 😭. I forgot my headphones but remembered my earplugs, so it’s not that bad, and it’s actually less busy than I expected. I am sad I can’t just buy an exact copy of my existing jacket, as it is a few seasons old. It just needs a new zipper, so I will try and get it replaced, but I need something in the meantime.

The benefit of the giant headphones is they are basically advanced warning to others that I ain’t quite right so I generally get left alone. I have already made two (2) retail workers uncomfortable by a combo deer in headlights/stammering response to cheeky banter/small talk. Sorry!

Generally a good approach! Unfortunately this acceptance testing for critical regulated equipment (that I know doesn’t function as per design) and I need the rest results to accurately show if it works or not. I’m the licenced engineer responsible for the overall system.

I’ve wasted my Saturday trying to understand neurotypicals and I’m mad at myself. Extremely simplified version:

I got asked if I wanted to witness some performance testing at work because I questioned previous tests (rightfully, I might add???). I don’t really want to, but I pop by to visit the system yesterday to just get a sense of how it’s operating. If it’s generally within parameters I won’t bother, but if it’s iffy I’ll show up.

The system is supposed to operate under a vacuum. Dear reader, it was positively pressurized?? Idk how it’s even possible but that’s not my mess to figure out. I reply back saying, heads up you might want to plan to delay the test because of [a variety of details]. People are traveling several hundred km for this and I thought it was polite. The evil autism approach would have been to show up on Monday, cackle at how it’s not working and tell them to call me when they fix it and then we can discuss if a test can happen.

I saw the reply today saying nah it’s fine?

I can’t wrap my head around it at all.

• Do they not understand? They designed the system, set the parameters and it’s been operating under vacuum for months. Too much vacuum at times! It can’t be that???
• Do they think if they say “nah bro it’s supposed to be like that” with enough confidence that I’ll believe them? Or that they can wear me down? They don’t know I’m autistic but I’ve literally never backed down on anything in the 5 years I’ve had a business relationship with these people so they should know better? (I will accept new evidence and correct my mistaken interpretation, but that’s not backing down).
• is there something in the fucking water??? Why am I the only person who questioned this or bothered to look before the test? Everyone is totally cool with traveling for hours to stand around in the cold for a few hours and not actually be able to do this test???

Anyways, I write a giant fucking novel of an email explaining point by point why it’s not acceptable to try and test the system as is, and what some possible solutions might be. 2 hours of my life. On a Saturday.

I should have just been evil.

(Kids: being paid to be autistic sounds fun but it actually fucking sucks some times.)

I appreciate this joke.

This sucks, I hate it for you

Ya girl has got her hopes up: https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/montreal/high-speed-rail-ottawa-montreal-9.7013138

TOOT TOOT

ITT people who don’t understand irony

Yes, I find them beneficial. I prefer when the warning itself is spoilered too. That way I can choose to totally swerve the content and don’t face anxiety over the subject matter at all.

H could also be “hierarchy is based sometimes, actually!”

I have discovered how to relax and it’s pottery, weed and techno.

We just picked up a banding wheel and I don’t know if I will ever trim on the pottery wheel again??. Okay that’s hyperbole, but this rules for doings slowly and intentionally.

This will hopefully be a cute stash jar.

I’m not trying to explain how I think people should behave, I’m trying to answer a question about why I think people behave a certain way.

There are a whole lot of assumptions in this reply lol.

I’m not offended, but it’s a good example of people not seeking to understand what they are replying to before they add their two cents.

I understand this is what happens on the internet. It’s not possible to communicate perfectly.

A few things come to mind:

1. People don’t seem to understand or care when a post is just to vent and the individual isn’t looking for feedback. Some people have a really hard time not chiming in with their take.

2. It’s a low effort reply that only requires a surface level understanding of the situation (and that might even be generous) so it’s very tempting to people who are itching to chime in on everything.

3. Some people feel Very Smart when they make that comment because it means (in their view) that they are gifted at getting to the heart of the matter and seeing things as they truly are, without bias. There is also zero consequence to them being wrong about this.

4. Sometimes people get defensive when they see their own behaviors reflected through someone’s vent post and it’s now personal.

5. It’s sometimes used as a general saying, like “You are the problem with this country nowadays”, again the commenter feels real fucking smug about their pattern recognition skills.

I’m sure sometimes OP is the problem but I’m not sure it’s possible to have enough information to make that kind of judgement.

I got diagnosed on Friday so hi hi hi hi hi

“k.”

You are wrong

VR tetris rules 🤭

I was never able to really make all that stuff work in the first place so I’ve got three “smart” bulbs I bought in maybe 2018 that still (mostly) work, and am generally switching my smart plugs to mechanical timers because I only really use them for grow lights.

I do feel better about being away from home overnight in winter with my weather station (which includes a sensor inside the house) but everything adds nothing to my life at all.

Electric, for ceramics. It’s specifically a Skutt KMT1027-3.

I was catching up on household budgeting this morning and just couldn’t… understand numbers? An account wasn’t reconciling and I reviewed transactions a handful of times trying to find the typo but couldn’t, super frustrating.

In positive news, we about to do a burn-in on the kiln (fire for the first time, empty).